"Girls always want to be fucked"

So lately, i've been off my game... the whole sex thing was just not that exciting and i didn't really feel like sleeping with anyone.

There was a point last week that even my masterbation was off, like i couldn't even arouse myself enough to even cum like normal...I felt really weird about that and was really worried for a second that I lost my ability to orgasm!!


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And then I realized I was delusional and had sex with various various people.

---- I'll update on that later, right now I wanna talk about what just happened last night.

So there is this dude that I have wanted for a time, thing is he friends with my ex...buttt any who we ended up in the same bar, drinking and then in the same bed.

Last night however there was mucho less drinking and it was planned outing with the intent to sex him good afterwards.

1. I came, finally, many times, and my faith was restored.
2. However he said something really odd but I think true because of misconceptions

"I've never had a girl want to be on top, they always just want to be fucked"..he went on to say its so refreshing and a turn on that I was on top and liked it and knew what I wanted.

This made me happy and sad at the same time. Happy = because I love when a guy appreciates a woman who knows what she wants and is willing to lay back and take it. Sad = because a. he said "women always want to be fucked" as if when your not on top,  you are the one getting fucked and b. some women do get off better laying on their backs but also c. I do feel that a lot of women think that being on their back is the only/best position because its the most common which makes me EVEN more sad/happy because I made this blog to empower more women to go out there and take the reins and fuck people and to get them on their backs and get what you want instead of just taking it.

Moral of the Story:
Women - go be more aggressive in the bedroom, get up there and take the reins (seriously girl on top for me is the best position - guarantee cum, FOR SURE)
Men - lay on your back every once in a while and let girls FUCK you, help women who are timid or whatever to get up there and experience the full power of your dick (i swear it reaches more places with girl on top)

Fuck Buddy Found...

In the past few months, I've learned quite a bit about myself.

I'll expand on all after....

1. I don't mind and quite encourage threesomes (especially DRUNK me) - I call it team building
2. I'm DEFINTELY bi-sexual
3. fuck buddy found ...and she is a girl, bonafide vagina and tits girl; which is AMAZING

Now everyone can go WTF, how did a straight girl who likes fucking dudes ALOT change it up and start fucking girls?

Well one, bisexual doesn't mean that im greedy and im not CHOOSING to be this way, hell it would be alot easier to be just straight, then i don't have to explain myself, it would also slim down the options cause fuck there already are so many options with just dudes.. *brain exploding*
So FUCK IT...its a real thing
I still like dick - in and around my poon
BUT I also like the rush of getting a girl off and the feeling of boobs on my body; its heavenly.

The whole realizing I'm bi thing has been my main reason for not blogging lately, its been a tad hard for me to come to grips with it and be ok with sharing it with anyone outside the girl i was fucking - also I didn't know how to approach it on here and whether you all would be interested in my stories even though they now will have more female appearances.

But here I am, like it or not...I'm gonna keep writing about my experiences and LOVE YOU ALL STILL.

Now, onto the first bullet - I think im going to make a whole seperate entry about that, since it seems to be a hot topic in my life lately and have a bit to say about it.

NEW FUCK BUDDY NEEDED!!

Having a good fuck buddy is essential

The relationship is a very unique one... the way I like mine to play out is this:

- we are friends - we prob don't hang out with the same people all the time or ever, but we can each hang out with each others friends no prob
- we both know that this is just what it is...and its NOT and never will become a relationship
- sex is good and we don't have to have dinner first or watch a tv show or movie  (again we know what   this is)
- they have their own place or a car that way sex can happen easier (ill go back to car sex if i have to)
- sleeping over is optional and isn't awkward cause who gives a fuck....we friends and we fuck
- never expect to be invited out to events by one another...if they happen to be there great, if not who cares...ITS NOT A RELATIONSHIP (at the end of the night if im not fucking someone...then we can text each other - its mutually beneficial)

- the fuck buddy has to be someone that you think is hot or that you think is great in bed but there is something between the two of you that you just KNOW you would never work out together - but we young and horny soo lets fuck who we want, when we want, as often as we want.

and to end that - I need one..I don't even remember how to go about finding one, its hard to find the perfect one but I HAVE to, soon.

MY LOINS DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANY LONGER.
 -- however I think I now have a candidate in mind...

Asian Gang-STAH

He was legit, an asian gangster in asia. Met (I use the term "met" loosely - more like I spotted him) him in Hong Kong (hence why he is legit).

Me and my friends would always go to this one club on tuesday - it was free cover for ladies and open bar all night...soo why the fuck not. Aside from us expat folks there, there always seemed to be an gangster asian population on tuesdays too.

This particular night, I felt like changing things up, time for a challenge and just an excuse to be ridiculous. I had declared that tonite, I would infiltrate the asian gangsters (cause they never even noticed or talked to the expat peeps) and my goal was to dance and even maybe take one home (if I found a hottie one, or ya know...open bar always helps my options).

Within no time, I was dancing with the whole group of them, just around and around, there was one who was more into tieing the crazy white chick down soooo of course I hopped into a cab with him.

This guy lived like a journey away! (which now i knew meant i HAD to sleep over ) we get there...he owns a house, dogs, car, garage...everything - if you don't know people in Hong Kong don't just own houses...everyone lives in apartments or condos. So I knew instantly that this guy didn't just dress ghetto gangster....he was one!

For a gangster he was pretty soft...I was expecting some ruff shit - NOPE

he made us both go for a shower together (sooo awkward..."i don't know you man!") and he wanted to wash my body (that shit is just uncomfortable - I DON'T KNOW YOU); so i hopped quick out of there   and made my way to the bedroom to do what I know I would enjoy! -- SEX AND MORE SEX

Now that i knew he was soft, I knew I could tell him what to do and he would obey everything - we had sex. There is really nothing to say about the sex, he was like most HK locals and not so well endowed but I played nice like always and then I was like SLEEP TIME!

But no...he talked for like 2 hours about this chick he was gonna marry and then she left him and then started talking about his businesses and MAN I just wanted to up and leave, he was such a sad man for being like almost 30 and supposedly a friggen gangstah.

OH PS ..did i mention for all swagged out he looked with his clothes on, once they were off....he SERIOUSLY  had the body of a maybe 14 yr old boy.

I wanted to be up and going so fast out of this in the morning - In the morning he showed me all this stock of clothing cause he owned a bunch of stores in downtown and was offering me all these things FO FREE. I knew i couldn't take any just because i would feel obliged to at least give him another chance when all i wanted was to not talk nor see his face again!

That didn't happen till like the afternoon - he took me for breakfast (i wanted to puke) and then he rode the transit with me ALL the way back to my area (like DUDE, WTF WE JUST HAD SEX)

ugh...after that, I was over HK locals, onto the next foreign beasts to check off

That Time I Initiated a Threesome...

This started out like any other threesome would....at a bar


The three people involved were myself, one of my girlfriends, and one of my guy friends.

Lets call my girlfriend Ariel and the guy Aladdin for sake of ease.
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Ariel recently got a job out of province in a place much less populated than where were currently lived, and she was coming back home to visit for the week. I was allotted the friday night for getting to spend time with her and she had told me specifically "I want to GET LAID tonight  its my only night free and back in civilization where there is good pickings and I really don't care who it is, but its been forever and I NEED it"

Being the great friend that I am, I said HELL YEA, eassssssyyy. So naturally we invite all our friends to the bar for a reunion, plus I know that she and one of the them were fuck buddies before and thus would be down, and if not, ITS A BAR!

At the bar, drinking, everyones arrived and it was great, except fuck buddy can't come, sooo now its hunting season and most of our friends have work in the morn so people are slowly just leaving! LAAAMMEEEE!

Aladdin goes to us "why don't we just go back to mine and drink so that we don't have to call it a night to fast"; now i know that Aladdin ALWAYS has tons of alcohol at his place and is always generous, so i'm down buttt that lowers our pickings for Ariel down to one and i don't know if shes down. Lo and behold, she says she is down for going to his place cause then we can continue drinking and the whole night isn't a disaster.

So like any good threesome story, it never started out being planned as a threesome.

We drove to his place in my car, get there, open a bottle of champagne....finish it, open another and I realize "OK guys, i can't drink anymore or else it DEFINITELY won't be safe for me to drive us (me and ariel) back home (to my place)." Aladdin says "well i'll pay for DADS, so KEEP DRINKING" (which is a taxi company that comes with two people and one drives you home and the other drives your car home behind you - smart right? i know!)

Well you don't have to twist my arm to get me to drink free booze AND pay for my cab home.
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I don't remember finishing that last drink...not a single clue...

Breaking Up

So officially single lady again. We had a good run, was in a legit relationship for about a year or so....well we were at least sleeping together for a year.

I'm not broken up about it, I knew it was coming and also knew that I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him.

So to keep this from getting ANY sappier... my last notes on relationships:

This was my longest and most legit relationship i've ever been in and it was the learning experience of a lifetime.

Both being single and being in a relationship have their pros and cons - I learned what it really meant to be cared about and thought about on a constant basis, someone always wondering what you thought or what you were doing that wasn't just your friend. That is nice, and comforting; not something i've ever been used to and was most likely always afraid of.

So thanks to him! for teaching me about all the good things of relationships and how valuable and lovely they are.

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On the other hand there is all the freedom to do whomever and whatever you want to do when single and no one to answer to. There is the doing whatever your heart desires always and whenever that is great about single. There is the extra time that you can spend learning about yourself and really caring about and going crazy over yourself. It's really a time that you can sit back and reflect and be selfish until you find that person that will complement what you really are and want out of life.
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AKA whether your single or taken, enjoy it and cherish it =)

HOLAY SHIITTEE

So it's been a hot minute since i've updated.

Quick run through:
got a bf, that was great, but just wasnt meant to be and was half cheating on him with another dude who i had my eye on for a LOOONGG time.

broke up with old bf and then started dating new bf and we've been together for about 9 months.
ROUND OF APPLAUSE - please and thanks (oh and ive been faithful and not done anything that a gf shouldn't be doing)

i think the having a bf thing is hindering my talking about sex...seeing as they (both of them -new and old) slightly take offence if im "thinking" about other guys.

Anywho, I've got some time, I miss this and all the fun it brings and sharing my stories. SOOOOO here is some more.

OH anddd for the past little while or so I have been telling my friends and whoever else that my number was "i thought" the low 30s....MANNNN was I wrong.

TRY 40
woah.